Let's boil hot water!

So the ED single and character song of Axis Powers Hetalia came out yesterday, and I finally got the chance to listen to it today. And oh god these people were so on crack when they did this song but goddammit I can't stop smiling like a maniac.

First impressions of Italy's chara song:

Intro thoughts: who the hell is this bossanova-kun?? (but it's not so bad. those cheesy lines are very italian-like, lols)

PASTAAAA!!!! (kinda had the feeling it would end up like this.)

Also, I've been reading Good Omens (which I had desperately tried to find for months now. I actually did a victory pose in the book store when I found it). The two main characters are an Angel and a Demon, and they act like an old married couple, which amuses me to no end.

tsundere demon.

Also an output of my hopeless imagination:

note: these are actual scenes from the book.

Will update on something a little more coherent once this momentary high is over.

Teenage Angst

So there's this call I've been trying to avoid for a year now (or more, I'd rather not count the days). It's like a false sense of comfort to ignore it, as if not hearing it will save me the pain of thinking about things that makes me feel like I'm stumbling in a circle without finding a way out. 

But the call came nonetheless. It was so unexpected that I lost my thought bearings for a short moment. It's been haunting me for a long time. Less recently, but still there like a scar that only hurts when you touch it. I wouldn't say that I'm in a rush to grow up. But I really do wish that I can mature enough to finally put things past me. 

Sometimes I really wonder if someone can really understand how much they can affect another.

”ああー。もしあいつがスキな子があれば、どんな幸せ子だろう。”って思た。

だって　あたしはあいつの事誰より知ってるから　（知ってた）

何を言ってもあいつがスキたった事を後悔しません　（でも後悔しった）

悔しけど

残ってる気持ちはもう’スキ’じゃない、ただ失ったトモダチの痛みがする。

未来がわかりませんですが、あいつはきっと一般な大人になります。そしていつかあたしはあいつの事を知らない人（モトトモダチ）の立場に笑う、そして幸せを願う。

あいつは多分あたしの事を悪者に見えるでしょう．．．

あいつがおそらく一生これを読めないけど、言いたい言葉はそれです：

”怒らないでください、一度わがままにさせてくれ。あたしはあなたの事をあきらめてくれ。それしがないです、もう二度とあたしの事なんか呼べないでください。あなたは偉いです。そしてあの女の子たちが痛いほうどに美しいです。あなたがきっと幸せにする、あたしがいない場所に。

ありがとう。ごめんなさい。

そして　さよなら。”

でもあたしはまだ勇気が足りないから　そこまで言う。